Where's my head at?????

well i know its been a while since i have posted (even though nobody reads this post anyways) all of that aside i have had around seven solid months of going home everyday and spending that time with my family and i have to say it has been really good for me and made me realize how important they truly are to me. back in November of 2008 one of my closest friend had committed suicide over his girlfriend which i may never understand but to be honest that was the first person who was that close to me to die and even to this day i have a hard time dealing with it. but after all that happened being with my family though very difficult to be able to handle the stress has been my outlet for coping. i love my family so very much and am saddened for the hard things i have had to put them through. October 5Th i will be leaving for yet another deployment on board USS. McClusky and will be gone for 6 months. this one is probably going to be my hardest deployment just because i was able to spend so much time at home with them. my wife Kelly, 2 1/2 yr old Lilly, and 5 month old daysie. i hope i will be strong for them daysie will not even remember me when i return.